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June 3, 2024


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May 5, 2024


I'M RETIRING THE HOME PAGE BLOG

Yeah, i don't really like updating this section anymore. Most of my website
updates happen in their own vaired and dedicated section. Each post is going to
be on it's own page probably. It's more fun to make a new layout for each little
project, even if it does end up being mostly text. Plus, this homepage is kinda
not all that useful if you want to see what I'm actually doing here. Consider
this a landing page with commentary!

June 26, 2024 7:02 PM




I MADE A MUSIC EXHIBIT

This current update has 2X'ed the size of my website. I hope you'll enjoy my
little webpage about my history with the caustic DAW! depending on my time, it's
going to be my last big blog update for a little while since work is starting.
Thanks for checking it out!


CHECK OUT THE MUSIC HERE! BYE BYE, CAUSTIC 3!

June 3, 2024. 1:02 AM




I MADE AN ART EXHIBIT

After doing some spring cleaning, I'm coming across a MASSIVE amount of small
sketches I've kept over the years. As much as I like them, I need to get rid of
them. I'm scanning and uploading them to a web-page for you all to see. It's
sort of a memorial of sorts, I guess. As much as I hate to admit it, drawing has
a pretty big opportunity cost, especially at this point in my life. Doodling
here and there is kinda the only way I can express myself in that way in between
everything else. The clutter it creates is pretty frustrating too, but it is
what it is. Until I'm self sufficient, 2D art is going to be a tertiary interest
rather than a true hobby.


CHECK IT OUT HERE!

May 5, 2024. 5:15 PM




MY GOOFY ASS FINALLY MADE A GUESTBOOK

yeah thats it. Also I applied to grad school, so we'll see how that goes. how r
U guys doing today?

In a really weird position in my life. It felt like everything was falling into
place, but in reality, it hasn't yet. Still ironing out the kinks i suppose.
Reviewing anime on here is pretty fun, so I won't stop doing that anytime soon.
Is this place still cyberpunk? IDK... It's kinda just a blog now. I'll update
the tags some day.

11:59 AM April 4, 2024





I FINALLY GOT A MECHANICAL KEYBOARD

Now i understand. Typing is like SOOO addicting now. It's so joyfull just to
press these buttons. I could do it for hours. I could do it for years. I've
hance realized that a large part of my facination with retro computers comes
from my love of the excellent keyboards they use. I'm no monster however, I
won't consume their keycaps for my own projects, this new keyboards is fitting
my needs just fine!!!

I understand you people now. This is excellent.

1:32 PM 7/27/2023





EVERYTHING EVERYWHERE ALL AT ONCE

I just seen this film with my family. It's affected me in ways beyond words.
Such a deeply passionate beautiful production, I am moved.

12:18 AM 6/3/2023





SACCHARINE PALE

Hey guys! Please check out my friend's game, Sacchrine Pale! He's been working
on it a good long time, and it's really cool and super fun! It comes out on the
6th of March, please wish list it if you can!

7:31 PM 2/16/2023





BOOM



Sorry for my incoherent rambling in the last post. I'm going through a lot right
now.



Life updates?



Someone tried to steal my bike during my last final exam at the end of the
semester. That special vanmoof lock kicked in tho so they were not able to get
away with it. I found it leaned up a gainst the wall a few feet away from the
cut lock on the ground.



I made a game! I can't post it here since it uses my IRL identity (trying to
keep this lowkey), but I learned a lot while making it.



Oh, I almost forgot, BIG NEWS PEOPLE, MY SEGA SATURN WORKS!!!! WOOT WOOT!! I've
been binging a bunch of cool games I hear about with the satiator device .
Current faves are: Kingdom Grand Prix, Radiant Silvergun, Dragon Slayer 2:
Xanadu via the Falcom Classics Collection, Street Fighter Collection, Bulk Slash
is super awsome! I've played other RPGs, but progress on those is frozen since
Xanadu takes up like 300 blocks!!! What the fuck falcom!!



I'm still pretty concerned for the future. Avoiding professional web dev without
professional experience in C++ or C# is proving to be quite difficult. How do
you break into a new industry without these types of experiences? arghhh



There's a game dev conference in November that I'm considering going to. I'lll
let you know if I do.



For a number of reasons, I'd really like to move out of my home soon. But lack
of employment or other prospects is limiting me right now. Also, the housing
market in the New York area is flaring up pretty badly. Furthermore, there ain't
that many jobs in the types of industries that I'm looking at in this area. I'd
rather not have to leave this area.



The microblog bot is down. I've been shitposting on twitter (not gonna link that
LOL) in the meantime, but it will likely return to the web in a few days.





Oh, I probably aught put some more fun things on this site, yes? More to come.

10:42 AM 1/17/2023





AUTISM DIAGNOSIS, COMPUTER REBUILD, AND OTHER TECHNOLOGY RAMBLINGS

As the title suggests, I was diagnosed with autism three weeks ago. What does
this mean for.. everything really? I'm not entirely sure. I'm glad that I've
finally been diagnosed, but I'm wishing I'd gone through this whole process 20
years ago... it could have saved a lot of headache.. Better late than never I
guess. I'm not planning on doing anything.. different? I guess I'm new to this
level of understanding.



In other news, after a recent hard disk failure on my childhood desktop PC, I've
taken it upon myself to do some upgrades. The last hard drive was about 12 gigs,
I've installed a 64 gigabyte SSD. It's much faster!. I've also installed a brand
new Nvidia Geforce MX200 which has honestly been incredible. I think when my
parents first got the computer, they never configured the graphics card, and it
was always running on default drivers. As a result of this, we always had very
low color depth, and the computer always looked and felt quite sluggish. I
installed the NVidia Drivers, and the result is night and day. I tried running
Unreal Tournament before I installed the GPU drivers, and the software rendering
was so bad I could hardly use the startup menu. After I installed it though? One
way ticket to frag town baby. You have to understand, my folks bought this
computer a few months after I was born. I have NEVER seen it fly like that.
Simply exhilerating. I'm going to run it again and check the ram usage, since I
feel that the default 96MB is not good enough. As for the OS.. it's running
Windows 2000. Much faster than the Windows XP install we previously had running
on it. I'm publishing a short guide on how I upgraded it along with this so
others that might need help upgrading their vintage PCs can do so without worry.



I'm quite proud of myself here. I've never upgraded, built, or did anything
super hardware intensive to a computer before out of fear that I may break it.
When I was a kid I would always take things apart and then.. leave them
dissasembled... permenantly. I'm sure you understand why now that I'm generally
a software person, though it's empowering to know that I can totallly fix and
upgrade computers when I need to.



On this topic of computers though, I've realized that I need a new laptop. My
main computer just ain't doing it for me anymore. It's an HP Envy x360, and kind
of un-approachable for a newbie to service. The kicker is though, I already have
a lot of computers. Each one has it's own weird issue that's preventing me from
using it like a normal laptop. HP randomly turns off. My old compaq's hard disk
is failing and the rubber case is melting off, my lenovo's screen is fucking
destroyed and costs 200 dollars to repair.. though the same laptop can easily be
had for 100 dollars. My Dell Latitude XPI is from 1997 and way too old for daily
use.. plus the GPU is terrible. My other, slightly newer Dell has motherboard,
screen, AND battery issues making it completely unusable.



The only portable computers that I have that are generally a joy to use are my
Asus A35e (currently running a discord bot), this Sony Vaio I swiped from my
parents (it's quite sluggish, but i'm typing this article on it), and my TRS-80
Model 100. I LOVE the Model 100. It boots up immedately. It has BASIC. The
interface is simple and fast. For simple note taking and testing out algorithms?
It's basically the perfect machine (Not to mention that I find 1980s laptop
design to be quite attractive. HUBBA HUBBA~). Alas, it's still from the 80s, and
even tho I've said it has no issues, I fear the cassete modem does not work,
making it somewhat of a challenge to share software between machines. I've been
able to get software off of my TRS 80 Model 4.. so it's not an issue with my
setup, it's just that the old bat is too stubborn to be insanely useful. All
this is to say that I want a laptop with the user experience of the Model 100
with the aminities of a modern machine. I love the shape of the thing, wedge
form factor is a must. With this in mind I was left with realistically two
products:





 * Ready Model 100
 * DevTerm





I was so excited about the Ready! Computer. It's supposedly super customizable.
A big factor in my attraction to READY! Is that the plans are open source. and
the thing is built to be repaired. As you've seen, I'm not super comfortable
with taking things apart, especially modern anti-repair technologies. READY's
philosophy shits in the face of those shoddy companies by provinding a full
guide to building the computer from scratch for free. It apparently uses off the
shelf parts, so if something broke, I'd be able to easily rebuild it. After
seeing the issues I've had with my other computers, this is pretty good. Most of
my old laptops have parts that are either difficult to find or difficult to
install for a newbie, and I'd rather not wrestle with old laptop hardware any
longer than I need to. The form factor and hardware were also bascially perfect
for my needs, so I was sold. There is one problem however. Nobody and I mean
NOBODY is talking about Ready online. Aside from the initial buzz from its
announcement, there have been almost no forum posts, and nothing on reddit about
the damn thing. I had to make my own thread about it on r/cyberdecks and that
was somewhat eye opening.



As it happens, the Ready company was hit with many supply chain hiccups during
the pandemic. On top of that, the demand for this machine is quite high. As a
small company, it's been hard on them to try to get everthing in order,
especially with the high demand they've recived. In short, orders are taking a
long time to be fufilled. I understand completely and wish them the best in
getting those computers out, but I think I'll hold off on purchasing one for
now. Yes I could build one, but I'd rather buy it fully assembled. I'll wait for
new developments on their kickstarter, once people start writing some more
reviews, I'll reconsider.



The Devterm on the other hand is way cheaper and quite similar! I just might get
that one. I did much less reading on it than I have done on the Ready! So I'll
update you when I've finally made my choice.



My one worry with these though is that the Pi inside may have difficulty with my
school websites and google drive. I've slowly been trying to degoogle myself,
but the reality is that I still need to use my school email for everything, and
I store my school documents on google drive and need to be able to access them
on the go. I probably won't be able to login to the private school wifi network
since the network driver is Windows and Mac only, so I'll have to use a 4G
connection, which is not optimal. This gets me thinking... should I get one of
these cool repariable raspberry pi laptops? or should I splurge on something a
bit more... powerful. I have taken to messing around with stable diffusion
lately (not for stealing from artists and posting stuff online... just using it
to make silly things for myself.. typing in shit like "giant toilet" and getting
a gargantuan toilet in a normal size bathroom lol), and as my interest in
machine learning grows, my laptop arsenal looks weaker and weaker. Only my
desktop can run stable diffusion. If I want to do anything else similar, like
NLP experimentation and Unreal Engine 5 experiments, I won't be able to do it on
my laptop. This is not optimal. Powerful laptops are expensive however, both
power wise and price wise. Battery usage will probably be too heavy to support a
full day of use (the great thing about the Model 100 is that the battey lasts
forever). In short I'm stuck between modernish alternative to the TRS 80 Model
100 that I'll probably keep in shape for a long time, or something powerful that
I can use to run anything my heart desires. 250 dollars versus.. lord maybe a
thousand dollars? more? Ughhhhhhhhhhh.. One nice thing about technology is that
Moore's law is fucking dead. My current PC won't be totally completely fucking
useless next year, so there's that to consider....



To make matters more complicated, I've been having issues with my bicycle. Strap
in, because this story will piss you off.



About a year and a half ago, my father was upgrading his electric bike from his
Vanmoof S2 to a Vanmoof S3. Being that I had been looking for an ebike for some
years, he offered to sell me his old one at a steep discount to help finance his
new one. Mind you, he had purchased it used and discounted, from Vanmoof, and I
purchased it used and discounted from him, so the final discount was quite good
all things considered. The bike itself rode fine, it's a comfy ride, and it gets
me to school very quickly. However, there are some problems. When I first got
the bike, I was not using it much. I was living on campus, and I was only using
it for evening bike rides. Whenever I DID want to ride it, the damn thing would
lock up. When vanmoof locks up, it LOCKS UP! If you nudge it, it starts yelling
at you. The display on the bike's frame forms a skull emoji and synthsized
growls emerge from it's speakers. I did not have the correct password for the
thing, so i could not unlock it. ABout four times did this happen, and I had to
get my dad's cell phone, bring it upstairs, pair it with the bike (this rarely
worked), and then unlock it though Vanmoof's system. This system SUCKS. Although
I've learned to deal with it a bit better (I know the password, so unlocking and
locking it is no longer an issue), the random lock ups were not fun to deal
with. I know now that there is a lock button on the back wheel that when
triggered locks up the bike, I'm careful not to depress it when wheeling the
thing through doorways, but it's still somewhat of a nusience. This button
should be onhe frame beneeth the seat, so it's harder to press by accident.



Mind you, many times when we had the alarm issue and could not get the bike
unlocked, the only solution was to take the Vanmoof ALLLL the way to the vanmoof
store in fucking Brooklyn for them to unlock it. I live in Newark NJ. On the
map, Brooklyn seems quite close! It's about 15 miles from here. Any New Yorker
will tell you that driving that sort of distance though the NYC area is a pain
in the ass. It's a full day trip just going to new york, since when you return,
you're totally exhausted. We had to make the trip at least 3 times to get our
bikes unlocked.

You know this bike store is far. You know it locks up. You know the bike is
always on Vanmoof's network. Did I tell you that the parts are all proprietery?
If you have any major issue with the bike, to Brooklyn you go.



In December of 2021 my Vanmoof S2 bike hit a MAJOR issue. On my way to class one
day and my front wheel became jammed. So jammed that it would not turn. After
doing some fiddling, I found that some dirt had gotten caught up in it, after
removing the dirt, it rolled to class fine. After class that day, I tried to
move my bike and the front wheel fell off the bike entirely. I flipped over the
bike and put it back on, only to find that one of the screws was completely
missing. Completely missing. Totally, fully, and completely gone. For context,
in the 1970s someone I know got into a really bad bicycle accident wheere his
front wheel popped off and he fell down on to the ground. He needed to get fake
teeth after that, and I believe he got off lucky.



Although, the wheel was not fully back on the bike, the cable attatching the
engine was, so I could still supply power to both the front and back wheel. I
stupidly rode the thing back home barely in tact, Going over any slight bump or
crease in the road could have detatched the wheel and wiped me out.



When I got home, we tried to sort it out. Over the next few weeks, and two trips
to Brooklyn (one was caused by me forgetting a second screw at the shop) we
aquired the proper screws and parts to re-assemble my Vanmoof S2 bike. After we
got the parts, we quickly realized that the front motor was no longer working.
We took it to Brooklyn after that. They lent me a Vanmoof S3 (a newer model) to
use while the S2 was being fixed.



A few weeks go by. They had to ship the bike to their repair shop in Germany.
Once I heard that I knew it was going to be a while. A month goes by. Nothing.
Two months. Nothing. Three. Nothing still. My dad told me to be happy I had a
newer more advanced bike to use.. but I was not buying it. That bike still has
had its fair share of problems. I was not buying it. I want MY property. Five
months go by. We finally hear a response. Do you know what those fuckers told
me? They said they threw my bike away and that I could keep the S3. They THREW
MY BIKE AWAY WITHOUT TELLING ME OR ASKING ME. The audacity of these people to
have full control over MY property is astounding. People tell me I should not be
too mad since I have an objectively newer and better bike but.. the principle of
it is garbage. Imagine if you saved 2 years for a Toyota Camry and bought it for
yourself, only to have it break down. You bring the car to Toyota, they keep it
for a half year, while lending you a Toyota Supra while the Camry is being
repaired. After 5 months of limbo, they say "your car was destroyed, keep the
Supra"! I guess when you put it like that, it doesn't seem as bad.. but I can't
help but be pissed. It's my property! I saved for that bike! Worse is, I would
have been OK with them scrapping it if it was broken, but the fact that they
only sent maybe.. two? Three? Emails over that five month period is what makes
it not OK.



I fully intend to replace my S3 someday with something better. Over my dead body
will I support another walled garden ecosystem. Over my live body is another two
thousand dollar purchase I need to prepare for. Needless to say, it is not a
priority... until that bike fucking breaks... I'm using my old Cannondale R400
this week.

Maybe I don't need an ebike after all.

3:00PM 11/1/2022





IT'S KINDA FUNNY HOW THINGS FALL INTO PLACE.

In the last 3 months I've contributed to the soundrack of 1 (almost 2!) games,
and a short animated film with my school.

I didn't think any of this would happen but hey it did! :)

6/23/2022





JUST A LIL BLURB

304k Lifetime views! That's insane!

I also just got an idea for this site that I'll experiment with in a moment.
Stay tuned!

5:48PM 5/21/2022





VAGRANT'S SONG

I did a little remix of a song from Mouryou Senki Madara 2 in Famitracker.

Enjoy!



9:01PM 3/27/2022





A BIT LOST

Nine months... wow! My longest hiatus yet! How is everyone doing these days?

I'm still in school, still trying to push through a career change from web to
game development.

I've also been doing some soul searching. I realize now that I have some mental
health related quirks that have put a big burden on my personal development, and
have been talking to some people about that. Eveyu time I try to work on
something my brain switches to something else. I have a graveyard of unfinished
projects on all of my computers.

Things are definately moving, but I can't help but feel very very lost at the
moment. I've been coding casually since 2011 and professionally since 2016. Yet,
most of the things that I worked on in the past, most of the technologies I used
I'm going to have to drop completely in order to get a job in this industry.
That or make something on my own, which is much, much harder to do.

I'm the type of person that gets very attatched to tools and a workflow, so
having to rebuild all of that is not really something I look forward to. Part of
me just wants to drop tech all together and get a job doing something artsy or
even completely unrelated. Maybe writing? Music composition (lol)? Drawing
(nowhere near good enough to do this yet)? Theraminist? Voice acting? Librarian?
Ugh I just wish I had some guidence, ya know? New Jersey, and the NYC metro area
does not have a repuation for cultivating the world's talent in the video games
industry, or any reputation that matter. Most of the people I know who want to
do this stuff are still searching, and most of the people I know who do this
stuff live at least a thousand miles away. I'v seen some people make stuff work,
however. Indie releases, hitting that just-right niche. But at what cost? What
If I spend 10 months working on a Neo-Geo MVS game and it flops? Almost no
companies are looking for a NeoGeo programmer, know what I mean? Ug h h h h h h
h h h h h h. This stuff is a lot to think about.



ON A MORE POSITIVE NOTE, I've been doing a lot more gaming lately!



After about 6 years of trying to play the intro and giving up due to how slow
the game starts, I finally actually got into Star Ocean: Second Evolution on
PSP! I plugged about 30 hours into the game before I got to one of those really
difficult points where I needed to take a step back. My thoughts are: It's a
great game! I adore the player profiles of this remake more than I do the PS1
original game. I also really like the voice acting. Some of the dungeons were
quite big, and could have benefitted from a map, but I never really found myself
that lost. The combat is a bit annoying, and even though it feels like it's an
action combat system, it's really a turn based system with some real time
elements in it, which is OK, BUT each time you see it and play it, you'll
default to thinking it's an action battle system based on its presentation and
flashiness. I personally think it was cool, but wish that the game made it a bit
easier to manage some of these elements. Also there's a lot of mechanics in game
that I didn't use at all. Maybe it's because I skipped past all the tutorials in
the beginning of the game since they were boring as fuck and I simply could not
be bothered with them and none of that shit was relevant at the time anyway. OR
Maybe the game doesn't do a good job explaining everything. Also, the music is
kinda middling nvm it's good lol. Also there's apparently over 80 endings? So
there's a lot of content and I've yet to see. note, I don't plan to 100% this
game or anything, for now, playing to a single credit sequence is good enough
for me. THE VERDICT THUS FAR: Good. Play it if you can.



What am I currently playing (while on hiatus from the GOAT game Star Ocean)?
RADIANT HISTORIA on Nintendo DS. I'm enjoying it a LOT! I love the battle
system. I'm 18 hours in thus far. I'll check back in once I've beaten it.





Other JRPGs I have in rotation:

 * SMT V: I was stuck for a while, but now i'm not
 * SMT III: Very cool, reminds me of SMT V a lot more than IV does.
 * Octopath Traveler: I deadass only care about the battle system in this game.
   When I'm playing it I dont think anything of it, but when I'm not playing it,
   I'm always thingking about playing it again. Is my JRPG side peice?
 * The Longest Five Minutes: I am very close to beating this game. It was my
   main squeeze before I got into SMT V and Star Ocean. I honestly stopped
   because I lost my PS Vita charger LOL. It seems really simple but it honestly
   really really grew on me. It's not a hard game at all. Honestly? It's a
   really nice experince. It's kinda like a B tier shonen anime that they made
   into a game. The characters are funny and memorable, the music is *chefs
   kiss*, the graphics are OK, the battle system is kinda meh but I like how
   fast everything goes. You could marathon this game in one sitting if u really
   wanted to. I really reccomend this one if you're looking for something
   casual.









Sorry for the rambunctious rambling, as you can see I have a lot on my mind.
Anyhow, I hope you all have a safe and prosperous new year!

3:15AM 1/7/2022





GAME COLLECTING!

I've been building a small collection of video games for a while, and I'd love
to talk about it here!

In order to facilitate this, I've written a python script that works in
conjunction with this app to generate a pretty webpage with all my stuff on it.
Take a look here!

11:16 AM 3/30/2021





VIBE CHECK

You know what's a really cool vibe? Listening to the Dynamite Headdy soundtrack
while browsing through the feed and Districts. No questions, just do it.

(PS: flappyshoot is still in development, I had to step back and do school, but
the next version will be up very soon).

9:02 PM 2/10/2021





ADDING MUSIC

WOW yall really like the games! Every time I add one the hit counter quadruples
for like 2 days. More updates to come to Flappyshoot (title pending) very soon.
I'm off (100% completely free) until Tuesday, I should have time to get some
development in. Also.. I hope ya'll don't mind the little music updates here and
there... since you'll be seeing a LOT more of them!

5:23 PM 1/16/2021





UPDATE 2 DROPPED

Flappy Shoot is updated and ready for the web! Peep it here (requres keyboard).

12:48 AM 1/10/2021





HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Happy New year everybody! Just wanted to do a quick update for the new year.
I'll be adding new songs fairly often to the jukebox at the top of the page,
that will act as my music blog of sorts... I'll upload tracks as I see fit. Also
- I just turned 21! I can drink and gamble now! Kind of crazy if you think about
it. I also just bought game maker studio 2 with web export! Expect to see a web
port of flappy shoot in the next few days! Cheers!

11:55 PM 1/3/2021





A YEAR IN GAMING

God damn I sure did play a lot of games this year. I got into a lot of random
franchises and I don't really regret that. Here's a short list of some of the
cool games I played.

 * Opoona: A really chill JRPG for the wii. Must buy as nobody knows about this
   game. I got a feeling it's going to be much more well known in coming years.
 * BAYONETTA: I'm in love. Enough said.
 * Kid Icarus Uprising: I have to say it - this would've been Nintendo's best
   first party video game.... if the controls were not so bad. The graphics, the
   pacing, the humor, and everything else about this game is a BLAST!! (it's a
   rail shooter + character action type of game)
 * Shin Megami Tensei Devil Summoner: Soul Hackers: A neato dungeon crawler for
   3DS that should not be missed. Grab it while you still can. Also my first SMT
   game ever!
 * Shin Megami Tensei 4: A another neato dungeon crawler for 3DS that should not
   be missed. It's pretty great too!!
 * Ys Origin: gawd DAMNN is this game good as fuck. Using the Ark of Napistim
   engine, this entry in the Ys series is a prequel to the first game. As a
   longtime fan of the series I can say with confidence that this game is damn
   near perfection. BUY IT!! My only gripe is that I wish it had voice acting
   like Felghana did. Other than that this game is liquid gold. shit got me
   droolin n shit lol.
 * Ys Seven: I got a really good deal on this game. 37 Dollars complete in box
   on PSP. It's not a bad game, just much slower than the games I prefer. The
   boss battles are pretty neat. The long dialouge isn't. Ys is known for it's
   great combat, there is great combat in this game, I just wish there was more
   of it.
 * Castlevania Dracula X Chronacles: My mom got me this for xmas. Thanks mom.
   Such a great game. The controls on Richter Belmont are a bit.... odd. But
   they really are not that bad. I can't wait to unlock symphony of the night!
 * ASTRAL CHAIN: My brother got me this one for xmas. Thanks bro! Platinumgames
   does it again folks! Such a beautiful, enticing video game this is. I have to
   play it more but I'm enjoying the worldbuilding!
 * Cloudpunk: A really nice adventure game! I'm playing it on switch.. it's
   groovy!
 * Dissidia Final Fantasy 012: I'm not really a fighting games guy.. but this
   one is really nice! It's like playing through an anime with them big fights
   in open fields! I never played the first game and have no idea what the fuck
   is happening but I'm having fun :D
 * Crystalis: ooooo boi this is a cool action RPG! The combat is really fun and
   so is the music. No wonder why people call it a classic... it totally is!
 * Muramasa: The Demon Blade: The music? Check. The graphics? Check. The
   gameplay? CHECK!! THE STORY? CHECK!!! Vanillaware has sure outdone themselves
   in this beautiful beat em up adventure. I can't wait to play 13th Sentinel!
 * SIN AND PUNISHMENT??? STAR SUCCESSOR??????: me trying to explain this game to
   you

11:10 PM 12/29/2020





ACTUALLY DOING IT

Like I said before, I am training for an eventual switch to game development. As
my first public project in some time, I will be using Game Maker (for now). I
made this demo in Game Maker 7 Lite. The goal was to combine the cool elements
of a game like flappy bird with the exploration aspects that come with a
platformer. You can download a windows executable here. If you don't have a
Windows PC, you can see a video demo here. I will be buying GM Studio soon so
don't kill me pls for using this edition. TIP: JUMP then try moving around!

6:10 PM 12/26/2020





I GOT THE JOB!

I've been prepping for a position at a company for a while and I finally got it!

Still some things I have to learn before accepting the position. But I am
excited!

Also happy holidays!

1:01 PM 12/25/2020





THERE'S A LOT MORE TO THIS STORY.

What's this? Another redesign? Yup.


I noticed that the last redesign was really pretty, but not really.... succinct.
It was strange to use and a bit too janky for my taste. It was all over the
place... in a bad way. The splash images were too big and it made the page slow
to load.

Besides! This design is really clean and now that I have a better handle and
design sense, I can make this place a lot more mobile friendly.

Thoughts?

1:51 AM 12/12/2020





CHECK OUT MY GUESTBOOK!




INTREST SPHERES


ANIME BLOG

Last Updated: April 2024


MANGA BLOG

Last Updated: April 2024


BOOKS BLOG 📚

Last Updated: March 2024


COMPUTERS 💻

Last Updated: May 2024


GAME CONSOLES 🎮

Last Updated: 2024


SPECIFICS


BYE BYE CAUSTIC 3

June 3, 2024


DISTRACTED INK

May 5, 2024


I'M RETIRING THE HOME PAGE BLOG

Yeah, i don't really like updating this section anymore. Most of my website
updates happen in their own vaired and dedicated section. Each post is going to
be on it's own page probably. It's more fun to make a new layout for each little
project, even if it does end up being mostly text. Plus, this homepage is kinda
not all that useful if you want to see what I'm actually doing here. Consider
this a landing page with commentary!

June 26, 2024 7:02 PM




I MADE A MUSIC EXHIBIT

This current update has 2X'ed the size of my website. I hope you'll enjoy my
little webpage about my history with the caustic DAW! depending on my time, it's
going to be my last big blog update for a little while since work is starting.
Thanks for checking it out!


CHECK OUT THE MUSIC HERE! BYE BYE, CAUSTIC 3!

June 3, 2024. 1:02 AM




I MADE AN ART EXHIBIT

After doing some spring cleaning, I'm coming across a MASSIVE amount of small
sketches I've kept over the years. As much as I like them, I need to get rid of
them. I'm scanning and uploading them to a web-page for you all to see. It's
sort of a memorial of sorts, I guess. As much as I hate to admit it, drawing has
a pretty big opportunity cost, especially at this point in my life. Doodling
here and there is kinda the only way I can express myself in that way in between
everything else. The clutter it creates is pretty frustrating too, but it is
what it is. Until I'm self sufficient, 2D art is going to be a tertiary interest
rather than a true hobby.


CHECK IT OUT HERE!

May 5, 2024. 5:15 PM




MY GOOFY ASS FINALLY MADE A GUESTBOOK

yeah thats it. Also I applied to grad school, so we'll see how that goes. how r
U guys doing today?

In a really weird position in my life. It felt like everything was falling into
place, but in reality, it hasn't yet. Still ironing out the kinks i suppose.
Reviewing anime on here is pretty fun, so I won't stop doing that anytime soon.
Is this place still cyberpunk? IDK... It's kinda just a blog now. I'll update
the tags some day.

11:59 AM April 4, 2024





I FINALLY GOT A MECHANICAL KEYBOARD

Now i understand. Typing is like SOOO addicting now. It's so joyfull just to
press these buttons. I could do it for hours. I could do it for years. I've
hance realized that a large part of my facination with retro computers comes
from my love of the excellent keyboards they use. I'm no monster however, I
won't consume their keycaps for my own projects, this new keyboards is fitting
my needs just fine!!!

I understand you people now. This is excellent.

1:32 PM 7/27/2023





EVERYTHING EVERYWHERE ALL AT ONCE

I just seen this film with my family. It's affected me in ways beyond words.
Such a deeply passionate beautiful production, I am moved.

12:18 AM 6/3/2023





SACCHARINE PALE

Hey guys! Please check out my friend's game, Sacchrine Pale! He's been working
on it a good long time, and it's really cool and super fun! It comes out on the
6th of March, please wish list it if you can!

7:31 PM 2/16/2023





BOOM



Sorry for my incoherent rambling in the last post. I'm going through a lot right
now.



Life updates?



Someone tried to steal my bike during my last final exam at the end of the
semester. That special vanmoof lock kicked in tho so they were not able to get
away with it. I found it leaned up a gainst the wall a few feet away from the
cut lock on the ground.



I made a game! I can't post it here since it uses my IRL identity (trying to
keep this lowkey), but I learned a lot while making it.



Oh, I almost forgot, BIG NEWS PEOPLE, MY SEGA SATURN WORKS!!!! WOOT WOOT!! I've
been binging a bunch of cool games I hear about with the satiator device .
Current faves are: Kingdom Grand Prix, Radiant Silvergun, Dragon Slayer 2:
Xanadu via the Falcom Classics Collection, Street Fighter Collection, Bulk Slash
is super awsome! I've played other RPGs, but progress on those is frozen since
Xanadu takes up like 300 blocks!!! What the fuck falcom!!



I'm still pretty concerned for the future. Avoiding professional web dev without
professional experience in C++ or C# is proving to be quite difficult. How do
you break into a new industry without these types of experiences? arghhh



There's a game dev conference in November that I'm considering going to. I'lll
let you know if I do.



For a number of reasons, I'd really like to move out of my home soon. But lack
of employment or other prospects is limiting me right now. Also, the housing
market in the New York area is flaring up pretty badly. Furthermore, there ain't
that many jobs in the types of industries that I'm looking at in this area. I'd
rather not have to leave this area.



The microblog bot is down. I've been shitposting on twitter (not gonna link that
LOL) in the meantime, but it will likely return to the web in a few days.





Oh, I probably aught put some more fun things on this site, yes? More to come.

10:42 AM 1/17/2023





AUTISM DIAGNOSIS, COMPUTER REBUILD, AND OTHER TECHNOLOGY RAMBLINGS

As the title suggests, I was diagnosed with autism three weeks ago. What does
this mean for.. everything really? I'm not entirely sure. I'm glad that I've
finally been diagnosed, but I'm wishing I'd gone through this whole process 20
years ago... it could have saved a lot of headache.. Better late than never I
guess. I'm not planning on doing anything.. different? I guess I'm new to this
level of understanding.



In other news, after a recent hard disk failure on my childhood desktop PC, I've
taken it upon myself to do some upgrades. The last hard drive was about 12 gigs,
I've installed a 64 gigabyte SSD. It's much faster!. I've also installed a brand
new Nvidia Geforce MX200 which has honestly been incredible. I think when my
parents first got the computer, they never configured the graphics card, and it
was always running on default drivers. As a result of this, we always had very
low color depth, and the computer always looked and felt quite sluggish. I
installed the NVidia Drivers, and the result is night and day. I tried running
Unreal Tournament before I installed the GPU drivers, and the software rendering
was so bad I could hardly use the startup menu. After I installed it though? One
way ticket to frag town baby. You have to understand, my folks bought this
computer a few months after I was born. I have NEVER seen it fly like that.
Simply exhilerating. I'm going to run it again and check the ram usage, since I
feel that the default 96MB is not good enough. As for the OS.. it's running
Windows 2000. Much faster than the Windows XP install we previously had running
on it. I'm publishing a short guide on how I upgraded it along with this so
others that might need help upgrading their vintage PCs can do so without worry.



I'm quite proud of myself here. I've never upgraded, built, or did anything
super hardware intensive to a computer before out of fear that I may break it.
When I was a kid I would always take things apart and then.. leave them
dissasembled... permenantly. I'm sure you understand why now that I'm generally
a software person, though it's empowering to know that I can totallly fix and
upgrade computers when I need to.



On this topic of computers though, I've realized that I need a new laptop. My
main computer just ain't doing it for me anymore. It's an HP Envy x360, and kind
of un-approachable for a newbie to service. The kicker is though, I already have
a lot of computers. Each one has it's own weird issue that's preventing me from
using it like a normal laptop. HP randomly turns off. My old compaq's hard disk
is failing and the rubber case is melting off, my lenovo's screen is fucking
destroyed and costs 200 dollars to repair.. though the same laptop can easily be
had for 100 dollars. My Dell Latitude XPI is from 1997 and way too old for daily
use.. plus the GPU is terrible. My other, slightly newer Dell has motherboard,
screen, AND battery issues making it completely unusable.



The only portable computers that I have that are generally a joy to use are my
Asus A35e (currently running a discord bot), this Sony Vaio I swiped from my
parents (it's quite sluggish, but i'm typing this article on it), and my TRS-80
Model 100. I LOVE the Model 100. It boots up immedately. It has BASIC. The
interface is simple and fast. For simple note taking and testing out algorithms?
It's basically the perfect machine (Not to mention that I find 1980s laptop
design to be quite attractive. HUBBA HUBBA~). Alas, it's still from the 80s, and
even tho I've said it has no issues, I fear the cassete modem does not work,
making it somewhat of a challenge to share software between machines. I've been
able to get software off of my TRS 80 Model 4.. so it's not an issue with my
setup, it's just that the old bat is too stubborn to be insanely useful. All
this is to say that I want a laptop with the user experience of the Model 100
with the aminities of a modern machine. I love the shape of the thing, wedge
form factor is a must. With this in mind I was left with realistically two
products:





 * Ready Model 100
 * DevTerm





I was so excited about the Ready! Computer. It's supposedly super customizable.
A big factor in my attraction to READY! Is that the plans are open source. and
the thing is built to be repaired. As you've seen, I'm not super comfortable
with taking things apart, especially modern anti-repair technologies. READY's
philosophy shits in the face of those shoddy companies by provinding a full
guide to building the computer from scratch for free. It apparently uses off the
shelf parts, so if something broke, I'd be able to easily rebuild it. After
seeing the issues I've had with my other computers, this is pretty good. Most of
my old laptops have parts that are either difficult to find or difficult to
install for a newbie, and I'd rather not wrestle with old laptop hardware any
longer than I need to. The form factor and hardware were also bascially perfect
for my needs, so I was sold. There is one problem however. Nobody and I mean
NOBODY is talking about Ready online. Aside from the initial buzz from its
announcement, there have been almost no forum posts, and nothing on reddit about
the damn thing. I had to make my own thread about it on r/cyberdecks and that
was somewhat eye opening.



As it happens, the Ready company was hit with many supply chain hiccups during
the pandemic. On top of that, the demand for this machine is quite high. As a
small company, it's been hard on them to try to get everthing in order,
especially with the high demand they've recived. In short, orders are taking a
long time to be fufilled. I understand completely and wish them the best in
getting those computers out, but I think I'll hold off on purchasing one for
now. Yes I could build one, but I'd rather buy it fully assembled. I'll wait for
new developments on their kickstarter, once people start writing some more
reviews, I'll reconsider.



The Devterm on the other hand is way cheaper and quite similar! I just might get
that one. I did much less reading on it than I have done on the Ready! So I'll
update you when I've finally made my choice.



My one worry with these though is that the Pi inside may have difficulty with my
school websites and google drive. I've slowly been trying to degoogle myself,
but the reality is that I still need to use my school email for everything, and
I store my school documents on google drive and need to be able to access them
on the go. I probably won't be able to login to the private school wifi network
since the network driver is Windows and Mac only, so I'll have to use a 4G
connection, which is not optimal. This gets me thinking... should I get one of
these cool repariable raspberry pi laptops? or should I splurge on something a
bit more... powerful. I have taken to messing around with stable diffusion
lately (not for stealing from artists and posting stuff online... just using it
to make silly things for myself.. typing in shit like "giant toilet" and getting
a gargantuan toilet in a normal size bathroom lol), and as my interest in
machine learning grows, my laptop arsenal looks weaker and weaker. Only my
desktop can run stable diffusion. If I want to do anything else similar, like
NLP experimentation and Unreal Engine 5 experiments, I won't be able to do it on
my laptop. This is not optimal. Powerful laptops are expensive however, both
power wise and price wise. Battery usage will probably be too heavy to support a
full day of use (the great thing about the Model 100 is that the battey lasts
forever). In short I'm stuck between modernish alternative to the TRS 80 Model
100 that I'll probably keep in shape for a long time, or something powerful that
I can use to run anything my heart desires. 250 dollars versus.. lord maybe a
thousand dollars? more? Ughhhhhhhhhhh.. One nice thing about technology is that
Moore's law is fucking dead. My current PC won't be totally completely fucking
useless next year, so there's that to consider....



To make matters more complicated, I've been having issues with my bicycle. Strap
in, because this story will piss you off.



About a year and a half ago, my father was upgrading his electric bike from his
Vanmoof S2 to a Vanmoof S3. Being that I had been looking for an ebike for some
years, he offered to sell me his old one at a steep discount to help finance his
new one. Mind you, he had purchased it used and discounted, from Vanmoof, and I
purchased it used and discounted from him, so the final discount was quite good
all things considered. The bike itself rode fine, it's a comfy ride, and it gets
me to school very quickly. However, there are some problems. When I first got
the bike, I was not using it much. I was living on campus, and I was only using
it for evening bike rides. Whenever I DID want to ride it, the damn thing would
lock up. When vanmoof locks up, it LOCKS UP! If you nudge it, it starts yelling
at you. The display on the bike's frame forms a skull emoji and synthsized
growls emerge from it's speakers. I did not have the correct password for the
thing, so i could not unlock it. ABout four times did this happen, and I had to
get my dad's cell phone, bring it upstairs, pair it with the bike (this rarely
worked), and then unlock it though Vanmoof's system. This system SUCKS. Although
I've learned to deal with it a bit better (I know the password, so unlocking and
locking it is no longer an issue), the random lock ups were not fun to deal
with. I know now that there is a lock button on the back wheel that when
triggered locks up the bike, I'm careful not to depress it when wheeling the
thing through doorways, but it's still somewhat of a nusience. This button
should be onhe frame beneeth the seat, so it's harder to press by accident.



Mind you, many times when we had the alarm issue and could not get the bike
unlocked, the only solution was to take the Vanmoof ALLLL the way to the vanmoof
store in fucking Brooklyn for them to unlock it. I live in Newark NJ. On the
map, Brooklyn seems quite close! It's about 15 miles from here. Any New Yorker
will tell you that driving that sort of distance though the NYC area is a pain
in the ass. It's a full day trip just going to new york, since when you return,
you're totally exhausted. We had to make the trip at least 3 times to get our
bikes unlocked.

You know this bike store is far. You know it locks up. You know the bike is
always on Vanmoof's network. Did I tell you that the parts are all proprietery?
If you have any major issue with the bike, to Brooklyn you go.



In December of 2021 my Vanmoof S2 bike hit a MAJOR issue. On my way to class one
day and my front wheel became jammed. So jammed that it would not turn. After
doing some fiddling, I found that some dirt had gotten caught up in it, after
removing the dirt, it rolled to class fine. After class that day, I tried to
move my bike and the front wheel fell off the bike entirely. I flipped over the
bike and put it back on, only to find that one of the screws was completely
missing. Completely missing. Totally, fully, and completely gone. For context,
in the 1970s someone I know got into a really bad bicycle accident wheere his
front wheel popped off and he fell down on to the ground. He needed to get fake
teeth after that, and I believe he got off lucky.



Although, the wheel was not fully back on the bike, the cable attatching the
engine was, so I could still supply power to both the front and back wheel. I
stupidly rode the thing back home barely in tact, Going over any slight bump or
crease in the road could have detatched the wheel and wiped me out.



When I got home, we tried to sort it out. Over the next few weeks, and two trips
to Brooklyn (one was caused by me forgetting a second screw at the shop) we
aquired the proper screws and parts to re-assemble my Vanmoof S2 bike. After we
got the parts, we quickly realized that the front motor was no longer working.
We took it to Brooklyn after that. They lent me a Vanmoof S3 (a newer model) to
use while the S2 was being fixed.



A few weeks go by. They had to ship the bike to their repair shop in Germany.
Once I heard that I knew it was going to be a while. A month goes by. Nothing.
Two months. Nothing. Three. Nothing still. My dad told me to be happy I had a
newer more advanced bike to use.. but I was not buying it. That bike still has
had its fair share of problems. I was not buying it. I want MY property. Five
months go by. We finally hear a response. Do you know what those fuckers told
me? They said they threw my bike away and that I could keep the S3. They THREW
MY BIKE AWAY WITHOUT TELLING ME OR ASKING ME. The audacity of these people to
have full control over MY property is astounding. People tell me I should not be
too mad since I have an objectively newer and better bike but.. the principle of
it is garbage. Imagine if you saved 2 years for a Toyota Camry and bought it for
yourself, only to have it break down. You bring the car to Toyota, they keep it
for a half year, while lending you a Toyota Supra while the Camry is being
repaired. After 5 months of limbo, they say "your car was destroyed, keep the
Supra"! I guess when you put it like that, it doesn't seem as bad.. but I can't
help but be pissed. It's my property! I saved for that bike! Worse is, I would
have been OK with them scrapping it if it was broken, but the fact that they
only sent maybe.. two? Three? Emails over that five month period is what makes
it not OK.



I fully intend to replace my S3 someday with something better. Over my dead body
will I support another walled garden ecosystem. Over my live body is another two
thousand dollar purchase I need to prepare for. Needless to say, it is not a
priority... until that bike fucking breaks... I'm using my old Cannondale R400
this week.

Maybe I don't need an ebike after all.

3:00PM 11/1/2022





IT'S KINDA FUNNY HOW THINGS FALL INTO PLACE.

In the last 3 months I've contributed to the soundrack of 1 (almost 2!) games,
and a short animated film with my school.

I didn't think any of this would happen but hey it did! :)

6/23/2022





JUST A LIL BLURB

304k Lifetime views! That's insane!

I also just got an idea for this site that I'll experiment with in a moment.
Stay tuned!

5:48PM 5/21/2022





VAGRANT'S SONG

I did a little remix of a song from Mouryou Senki Madara 2 in Famitracker.

Enjoy!



9:01PM 3/27/2022





A BIT LOST

Nine months... wow! My longest hiatus yet! How is everyone doing these days?

I'm still in school, still trying to push through a career change from web to
game development.

I've also been doing some soul searching. I realize now that I have some mental
health related quirks that have put a big burden on my personal development, and
have been talking to some people about that. Eveyu time I try to work on
something my brain switches to something else. I have a graveyard of unfinished
projects on all of my computers.

Things are definately moving, but I can't help but feel very very lost at the
moment. I've been coding casually since 2011 and professionally since 2016. Yet,
most of the things that I worked on in the past, most of the technologies I used
I'm going to have to drop completely in order to get a job in this industry.
That or make something on my own, which is much, much harder to do.

I'm the type of person that gets very attatched to tools and a workflow, so
having to rebuild all of that is not really something I look forward to. Part of
me just wants to drop tech all together and get a job doing something artsy or
even completely unrelated. Maybe writing? Music composition (lol)? Drawing
(nowhere near good enough to do this yet)? Theraminist? Voice acting? Librarian?
Ugh I just wish I had some guidence, ya know? New Jersey, and the NYC metro area
does not have a repuation for cultivating the world's talent in the video games
industry, or any reputation that matter. Most of the people I know who want to
do this stuff are still searching, and most of the people I know who do this
stuff live at least a thousand miles away. I'v seen some people make stuff work,
however. Indie releases, hitting that just-right niche. But at what cost? What
If I spend 10 months working on a Neo-Geo MVS game and it flops? Almost no
companies are looking for a NeoGeo programmer, know what I mean? Ug h h h h h h
h h h h h h. This stuff is a lot to think about.



ON A MORE POSITIVE NOTE, I've been doing a lot more gaming lately!



After about 6 years of trying to play the intro and giving up due to how slow
the game starts, I finally actually got into Star Ocean: Second Evolution on
PSP! I plugged about 30 hours into the game before I got to one of those really
difficult points where I needed to take a step back. My thoughts are: It's a
great game! I adore the player profiles of this remake more than I do the PS1
original game. I also really like the voice acting. Some of the dungeons were
quite big, and could have benefitted from a map, but I never really found myself
that lost. The combat is a bit annoying, and even though it feels like it's an
action combat system, it's really a turn based system with some real time
elements in it, which is OK, BUT each time you see it and play it, you'll
default to thinking it's an action battle system based on its presentation and
flashiness. I personally think it was cool, but wish that the game made it a bit
easier to manage some of these elements. Also there's a lot of mechanics in game
that I didn't use at all. Maybe it's because I skipped past all the tutorials in
the beginning of the game since they were boring as fuck and I simply could not
be bothered with them and none of that shit was relevant at the time anyway. OR
Maybe the game doesn't do a good job explaining everything. Also, the music is
kinda middling nvm it's good lol. Also there's apparently over 80 endings? So
there's a lot of content and I've yet to see. note, I don't plan to 100% this
game or anything, for now, playing to a single credit sequence is good enough
for me. THE VERDICT THUS FAR: Good. Play it if you can.



What am I currently playing (while on hiatus from the GOAT game Star Ocean)?
RADIANT HISTORIA on Nintendo DS. I'm enjoying it a LOT! I love the battle
system. I'm 18 hours in thus far. I'll check back in once I've beaten it.





Other JRPGs I have in rotation:

 * SMT V: I was stuck for a while, but now i'm not
 * SMT III: Very cool, reminds me of SMT V a lot more than IV does.
 * Octopath Traveler: I deadass only care about the battle system in this game.
   When I'm playing it I dont think anything of it, but when I'm not playing it,
   I'm always thingking about playing it again. Is my JRPG side peice?
 * The Longest Five Minutes: I am very close to beating this game. It was my
   main squeeze before I got into SMT V and Star Ocean. I honestly stopped
   because I lost my PS Vita charger LOL. It seems really simple but it honestly
   really really grew on me. It's not a hard game at all. Honestly? It's a
   really nice experince. It's kinda like a B tier shonen anime that they made
   into a game. The characters are funny and memorable, the music is *chefs
   kiss*, the graphics are OK, the battle system is kinda meh but I like how
   fast everything goes. You could marathon this game in one sitting if u really
   wanted to. I really reccomend this one if you're looking for something
   casual.









Sorry for the rambunctious rambling, as you can see I have a lot on my mind.
Anyhow, I hope you all have a safe and prosperous new year!

3:15AM 1/7/2022





GAME COLLECTING!

I've been building a small collection of video games for a while, and I'd love
to talk about it here!

In order to facilitate this, I've written a python script that works in
conjunction with this app to generate a pretty webpage with all my stuff on it.
Take a look here!

11:16 AM 3/30/2021





VIBE CHECK

You know what's a really cool vibe? Listening to the Dynamite Headdy soundtrack
while browsing through the feed and Districts. No questions, just do it.

(PS: flappyshoot is still in development, I had to step back and do school, but
the next version will be up very soon).

9:02 PM 2/10/2021





ADDING MUSIC

WOW yall really like the games! Every time I add one the hit counter quadruples
for like 2 days. More updates to come to Flappyshoot (title pending) very soon.
I'm off (100% completely free) until Tuesday, I should have time to get some
development in. Also.. I hope ya'll don't mind the little music updates here and
there... since you'll be seeing a LOT more of them!

5:23 PM 1/16/2021





UPDATE 2 DROPPED

Flappy Shoot is updated and ready for the web! Peep it here (requres keyboard).

12:48 AM 1/10/2021





HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Happy New year everybody! Just wanted to do a quick update for the new year.
I'll be adding new songs fairly often to the jukebox at the top of the page,
that will act as my music blog of sorts... I'll upload tracks as I see fit. Also
- I just turned 21! I can drink and gamble now! Kind of crazy if you think about
it. I also just bought game maker studio 2 with web export! Expect to see a web
port of flappy shoot in the next few days! Cheers!

11:55 PM 1/3/2021





A YEAR IN GAMING

God damn I sure did play a lot of games this year. I got into a lot of random
franchises and I don't really regret that. Here's a short list of some of the
cool games I played.

 * Opoona: A really chill JRPG for the wii. Must buy as nobody knows about this
   game. I got a feeling it's going to be much more well known in coming years.
 * BAYONETTA: I'm in love. Enough said.
 * Kid Icarus Uprising: I have to say it - this would've been Nintendo's best
   first party video game.... if the controls were not so bad. The graphics, the
   pacing, the humor, and everything else about this game is a BLAST!! (it's a
   rail shooter + character action type of game)
 * Shin Megami Tensei Devil Summoner: Soul Hackers: A neato dungeon crawler for
   3DS that should not be missed. Grab it while you still can. Also my first SMT
   game ever!
 * Shin Megami Tensei 4: A another neato dungeon crawler for 3DS that should not
   be missed. It's pretty great too!!
 * Ys Origin: gawd DAMNN is this game good as fuck. Using the Ark of Napistim
   engine, this entry in the Ys series is a prequel to the first game. As a
   longtime fan of the series I can say with confidence that this game is damn
   near perfection. BUY IT!! My only gripe is that I wish it had voice acting
   like Felghana did. Other than that this game is liquid gold. shit got me
   droolin n shit lol.
 * Ys Seven: I got a really good deal on this game. 37 Dollars complete in box
   on PSP. It's not a bad game, just much slower than the games I prefer. The
   boss battles are pretty neat. The long dialouge isn't. Ys is known for it's
   great combat, there is great combat in this game, I just wish there was more
   of it.
 * Castlevania Dracula X Chronacles: My mom got me this for xmas. Thanks mom.
   Such a great game. The controls on Richter Belmont are a bit.... odd. But
   they really are not that bad. I can't wait to unlock symphony of the night!
 * ASTRAL CHAIN: My brother got me this one for xmas. Thanks bro! Platinumgames
   does it again folks! Such a beautiful, enticing video game this is. I have to
   play it more but I'm enjoying the worldbuilding!
 * Cloudpunk: A really nice adventure game! I'm playing it on switch.. it's
   groovy!
 * Dissidia Final Fantasy 012: I'm not really a fighting games guy.. but this
   one is really nice! It's like playing through an anime with them big fights
   in open fields! I never played the first game and have no idea what the fuck
   is happening but I'm having fun :D
 * Crystalis: ooooo boi this is a cool action RPG! The combat is really fun and
   so is the music. No wonder why people call it a classic... it totally is!
 * Muramasa: The Demon Blade: The music? Check. The graphics? Check. The
   gameplay? CHECK!! THE STORY? CHECK!!! Vanillaware has sure outdone themselves
   in this beautiful beat em up adventure. I can't wait to play 13th Sentinel!
 * SIN AND PUNISHMENT??? STAR SUCCESSOR??????: me trying to explain this game to
   you

11:10 PM 12/29/2020





ACTUALLY DOING IT

Like I said before, I am training for an eventual switch to game development. As
my first public project in some time, I will be using Game Maker (for now). I
made this demo in Game Maker 7 Lite. The goal was to combine the cool elements
of a game like flappy bird with the exploration aspects that come with a
platformer. You can download a windows executable here. If you don't have a
Windows PC, you can see a video demo here. I will be buying GM Studio soon so
don't kill me pls for using this edition. TIP: JUMP then try moving around!

6:10 PM 12/26/2020





I GOT THE JOB!

I've been prepping for a position at a company for a while and I finally got it!

Still some things I have to learn before accepting the position. But I am
excited!

Also happy holidays!

1:01 PM 12/25/2020





THERE'S A LOT MORE TO THIS STORY.

What's this? Another redesign? Yup.


I noticed that the last redesign was really pretty, but not really.... succinct.
It was strange to use and a bit too janky for my taste. It was all over the
place... in a bad way. The splash images were too big and it made the page slow
to load.

Besides! This design is really clean and now that I have a better handle and
design sense, I can make this place a lot more mobile friendly.

Thoughts?

1:51 AM 12/12/2020



WHO?

I'm Yudosai. I make websites, code, and write music. Currently moving into game
development. I love music, video games, art, animation, and history. I'm 24.
Based in Brick City, NJ

thanks for stopping by


Pronouns: He/Him



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KINDA INTERESTING PODCAST LIST

Yeah I know this is sort of random but I need somewhere to keep track of the
podcasts I listen to(and want to listen to), why not here?
 * Compromised
 * Archive 81
 * Fun, But Why‪?‬
   

(on the backburner)
 * Afternow
 * Ghost Planet
 * Edict Zero
 * Cyberpunk Librarian
 * Darknet Diaries
 * All this shit