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HIATUS

by Kalli on April 25, 2022 at 2:28 pm
Chapter: Chapter 2



This is gonna be very stream-of-consciousness, so sorry about that ahead of
time.

I’m sorry for going radio silent and just up and vanishing since December. 
There’s probably a lot to explain, but I’m not even sure where to start. 
Basically, I’ve been having serious mental health struggles, and they got much
worse in December, and it’s been difficult since.

Early December I had the worst anxiety I ever had in my life.  I was terrified I
was going to die or had brain cancer or something.  It was so bad I ended up
going to the emergency room -twice- in the span of a few days, just a week
before an already scheduled doctor’s appointment.

Been working on trying to find a medication that’ll help, but haven’t had luck
so far.  Also, anxiety/depression aside, my left eye has been having issues
focusing.  It’s hard to describe, but basically, with glasses, my vision is
clear, but it feels like I can’t actually focus or settle on anything with that
eye.  That, mixed with bad anxiety, was why I was so worried.

Had tons of tests and things, MRI, etc.  Nothing wrong yet, so this might just
be my life now.  I’m slowly getting used to it~

Also, got hit with the worst depression I’ve ever experienced and have been
struggling with that for a couple months now.  Been kinda stuck in a brain fog
sorta state.  So much so that it’s severely affecting my day job.  Let alone
comic making.  Again, working on finding a medication that’ll help, but in the
mean time that’s still a struggle.

Now that all said, this is where it’ll probably get weird to explain. 
Basically, I hadn’t drawn basically anything since I finished up the batch of
page updates back in like, September.  So mid December, while dealing with all
this, I decided to just doodle some random stuff with zero thought.  Ended up
with a nsfw piece I thought was neat, and shared it to a separate account. 
Since then, I’ve been drawing a lot of just, random dumb stuff for the hidden
account, and honestly that’s the only thing keeping me even vaguely sane lately,
is creating art without a plan or expectations.

It’s weird, cause like, since all my nonsense in December, I feel like I’m kind
of a different person?  It’s hard to explain, but my focus and priorities and
stuff shifted kinda suddenly.  Probably cause depression. :/

I’m sorry for not responding to any of the comments ya’ll have left over the
months.  Honestly I’ve been terrified to check them and find out how upset
everyone is about the comic suddenly stopping.  And I wouldn’t blame ya, cause
it seems like yet another webcomic that just stops suddenly.  And I really don’t
want that.  I’ll get the nerve up to check eventually, or have the girls check
first to see if any are like, mega mad first…

Anyway, thank you all for sticking with Ruan this whole time, and I really
appreciate you all!  I’m sorry things got weird this year, but when I’m feeling
better I want to start updating again.  Maybe not once a week, but something.

TL:DR

Sorry for vanishing.  Struggling with anxiety/depression/health issues.  Will
come back to the comic someday.


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DISCUSSION (12) ¬

 1.  TiredTait
     April 25, 2022, 7:05 pm | # | Reply
     
     thanks for the update, it’s been a crazy couple of years for everyone. I
     love the story but I know that life gets in the way and am more than happy
     to wait.
     
     
 2.  Bill Higdon
     April 26, 2022, 1:21 pm | # | Reply
     
     stay safe
     
     
 3.  Red
     April 26, 2022, 1:40 pm | # | Reply
     
     Take all the time you need – your health is important. We’ll still be here
     when you return.
     
     
 4.  Brother Parvus
     April 28, 2022, 6:55 am | # | Reply
     
     I echo the above sentiment. I have thoroughly enjoyed this comic since page
     1 and wish you the very best.
     
     
 5.  LilFluff
     April 28, 2022, 1:37 pm | # | Reply
     
     Indeed, see to your health, we can be patient (and I’ve got this on my
     Piperka queue so I’ll get a notice when a new page is up). The last few
     years have been more than enough to hit everyone hard. I’ve ended up
     dropping a number of things myself (I don’t think I’ve even picked up my
     guitar in a year now). See to yourself and return when it’s right for you
     to return. Anyone has a problem with that can pound sand.
     
     
 6.  ShadowstalkerW
     April 28, 2022, 7:08 pm | # | Reply
     
     Sometimes these things just come on like a switch you wish wasn’t stuck
     where it is. Trying to adjust and work around it is rough, takes time, but
     it can be done. Have faith in yourself, try your best, and ask for help
     when you need it. Thank you so much for at least slipping an update here.
     Its good to know you are there.
     
     
 7.  Torfinn I.
     April 30, 2022, 10:48 am | # | Reply
     
     Health and life first. Take care!
     
     
 8.  Walter D Davis
     May 1, 2022, 8:41 am | # | Reply
     
     Good luck! Hope that you find a fix, or a cure, or that this just goes away
     like a really bad dream.
     
     
 9.  Drac
     May 17, 2022, 10:46 pm | # | Reply
     
     Many hopes for recovering some stability in your life; do take your time,
     we will wait. It is appreciated that you have told us what has brought
     about the hiatus; I suspect that others beside myself had feared that the
     “C-plague” had intervened.
     
     Again, do not fear, you have some loyal readers whom *do* have patience. :}
     
     
 10. sparkplug54
     June 1, 2022, 9:08 am | # | Reply
     
     I have reached the place of not being surprised with lengthy absences in
     web comics. I recognize that they usually aren’t done for money, but for
     love of the art. You are not the first artist who has fought mental health
     issues, and unfortunately won’t be the last. I am appreciative of your work
     and all that you have shared with us. I hope you find something to help you
     regain your functioning, because I know it is difficult for you. I will
     keep checking back every moth or so, hoping for good news. But as the
     previous comments said, take care of your health and your self We can wait.
     And I will. Wishing you well.
     
     
 11. Winged Kitsune
     June 23, 2022, 7:56 am | # | Reply
     
     It almost sounds like you could have some type of auto-immune disorder.
     They are notoriously difficult to diagnose.
     
     But they are treatable, and can be lived with.
     
     If your Doctors haven’t already tested you for anything like that, I would
     ask them to.
     
     You come back when you think you’re ready. You gotta take care of you
     first.
     
     
 12. Drac
     July 24, 2022, 3:14 pm | # | Reply
     
     I do wonder if it might be possible to see a link to this ‘random dumb
     stuff’… as I suspect that it may not be ‘dumb’ at all? :}
     
     


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