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@lubetzky / lubetzky.tumblr.com

Librarian. Native New Yorker. Former Portlandian. Current Baltimorean. Mets, Os,
baseball, libraries and sundry.
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i foun d my old wallet in the drawer next to my bed and it had $400 in it im
having a heart attack

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reblog the aquabats! wallet of good fortune & you’ll b blessed w/ good fortune

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HOLY SHIT I REBLOGGED THIS TWO DAYS AGO AND I JUST GOT A REFUND CHECK IN THE
MAIL FOR 217.52!!!!

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you have been visited by the seven magic dragon balls your biggest wish will be
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Couldn’t risk it.

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didn’t realize they change colors. now I know o gotta wish.

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THIS SHIT IS REAL I GOT THE JOB I WAS NUTS ABOUT BC I REBLOGGED THIS YESTERDAY
maybe it’s a coinkidink but it okay just take the necessary steps to achieve
what you’re wishing for and YOU CAN DO IT

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I BELIEVE

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2016

2015 wasn’t the worst year ever (2014 and 2006 hold that dubious honor), but I’m
glad it’s over.

I know it’s an arbitrary date and you have to DO things to make habits stick,
but I bought a new notebook on New Year’s Eve and I’m going to try to be a
better person in 2016. That’s all (and possibly everything). That also includes
self-care, which I’ve been sucking at for a looooooong time. Today I cleaned out
the fridge and we spent too much at Wegmans, but it means I can make meals that
aren’t “stick cheese between whatever carb is left in the house). Office is
pulled back together. I have two bags of coffee. Plans are made for actually
getting exercise that isn’t just walking to the bus and back. Plans are being
made. Books are being read (basically all of Lord Peter Wimsey ever).

I refuse to let 2016 suck. I will take care of myself. I will take care of
others. I will listen more. I will read more. I will be more patient, to myself
and others.

And now I will go and get pizza with the Huzband, because reasons.

lubetzky



So it's been 9 months, Tumblr. A lot has happened. Let's recap. Tournament
rocked. Anxiety leaves but Existential crisis set in. Visit friend to talk it
out. No conclusion. Awful birthday. Went back to old therapist who remains
amazing. Re-org at work. Boss fired. Crisis continues though I know what to do.
Weeks of awkward conversations. Husband and I agree to separate but I agree to
live in the apartment for a while. Little Seester graduates from college. I pack
my bags the night I get back and flee to a friend's spare room. It's been nearly
four months since. There is a cat here named Louie and we are friends. Hire
lawyer. ALA and Summer Nationals. Husband stops communicating, starts talking
shit at tournament but also doesn't tell fencers we are separated. Nothing for a
month and a half and suddenly a moving pod appears. Lawyers now negotiating but
he's leaving the state.

So everything fell apart. And I couldn't be happier. Even if today I'm exhausted
from travel and waiting to hear from my lawyer. Even if I'm sleeping on a futon
in a house I never saw until the day I moved in. Even if I worry about dying
alone or losing everything in the divorce.

Everything fell apart and I am happy.

#pointless text post
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Stevie Wonder on accessibility for people with all kinds of bodies and
abilities.

Gifs: The Grammys on CBS

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[Stevie Wonder saying: You all can’t read this, huh. You can’t read Braille, nah
nah nah nah nah. I just want to say, before saying the winner, we need to make
every single thing accessible to every single person with a disability.]

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lubetzky Folgen Edna St. Vincent Millay. The Penitent. Harriet Monroe, ed.
Poetry: A Magazine of Verse. 1912-22Edna St. Vincent Millay. The Penitent.
Harriet Monroe, ed. Poetry: A Magazine of Verse. 1912-22www.bartleby.comThe
Penitent By Edna St. Vincent Millay From “Figs from Thistles”I HAD a little
Sorrow,  Born of a little Sin, I found a room all damp with gloom  And shut us
all within; And, “Little Sorrow, weep,” said I,        5 “And, Little Sin, pray
God to die, And I upon the floor will lie  And think how bad I’ve been!” Alas
for pious planning—  It mattered not a whit!        10 As far as gloom went in
that room,  The lamp might have been lit! My little Sorrow would not weep, My
little Sin would go to sleep— To save my soul I could not keep        15  My
graceless mind on it! So up I got in anger,  And took a book I had, And put a
ribbon on my hair  To please a passing lad.        20 And, “One thing there’s no
getting by— I’ve been a wicked girl,” said I; “But if I can’t be sorry, why,  I
might as well be glad!” #poems#poetry#edna st. vincent millay
lubetzky Folgen More tracking...Today I am failing at all of my pre-planned work
goals (set out diligently at 4 pm the day before), but I’m going to tell myself
that it’s okay because I’ve done other things, even if they’re not the things I
wanted to do.  It’s snowing but not sticking, and it’s drenching like rain. I
got out of the house a little early and made the first bus. I made coffee before
I left.  I worked on an app for a grad certificate program (despite the website
destroying itself part way through).It’s okay. Stuff still happened and I found
a good background noise site and we’ll get it tomorrow, self. Even if today
we’re scattered and distracted and tired for no reason.Tournament this weekend
and I have made my peace with it. It’s going to happen and then it’s going to be
the last one I have to run for a very long time. Because graduate certificate
program and wanting to use my vacation days for an actual vacation.#pointless
text post
lubetzky Folgen Bleached again. Monday. Started off productive and strong and
now I’m in the lunchtime slump.NewTherapist emailed me a follow up 7 hours
before this evening’s appointment, so I opted to reschedule. Yay?#pointless text
post
lubetzky Folgen Sleep and SnowGot through last week, barely. Presentation and
day long meeting on T&P and liaison program meeting and a follow up and another
meeting and so on. Then half day on Friday so we could go home and prep for the
blizzard. I cleaned off both rain water grates on our street (amazing how
quickly leaves turn into dirt) and then proceeded to stay inside for three days.
I slept and read books and cooked actual food and slept and then slept some
more. I am nearly back to sounding like a human and only have the occasional
coughing fit. work opened on time yesterday and I just about got my sleep
schedule back in order. 4 more hours and a meeting and then I get to go meet
with a friend to talk about a blog post we want to write.Changes coming to work
and that’s all good. And I might go back to school this summer for a certificate
at Local Library School. I might also give up tournaments for a year to
accommodate this. We shall see.Last night I got my second Stitch Fix and it was
all amazing and I’m wearing the sweater they sent and I will probably never go
clothes shopping again. This is exactly what I’ve needed - someone sending me
perfectly fitting staples in colors I love (black and grey) and then funky pops
of color.  The best. Worth it.Saturday I am bleaching my hair again (well, a
paid professional I adore is doing it). I might just feel like me again.The new
therapist I’m allegedly supposed to see on Monday never confirmed the
appointment via email like she said. Which is exactly what someone who is coming
to you about anxiety wants to hear. So maybe that’s still happening?4 more
hours. We’ve been so productive today, self.  Let’s keep going.#pointless text
post#anxiety brainz
lubetzky Folgen Tournament TraditionsThe night before this three day tournament,
I was exhausted, shivering, and my legs ached. I survived this tournament thanks
to a combo of DayQuil/NyQuil and strategic napping on the bout committee stage.
It is finished. It went well - no major snafus and we mostly ran to time, except
on the Hell Day, but it’s called Hell Day, so there you go. I spent yesterday
sleeping (i.e., watching episode after episode of Forensic Files on Netflix
while dozing). Today I have staff development day and get to give a 5 min
presentation I feel super under-prepared for and yet also way over-prepared.
It’s freezing out, so I drove. Tonight, I crawl back into bed and I sleep.I’m
happy that this tournament went so well. It’s the boost I need for the
tournament I’m running next month (my last of the season until Nationals). It
was good to see my fencing people. It was good to be in that mode where you’re
all working together to accomplish something, to do it quickly and well. Now to
stare at a wall for 45 minutes until my meeting. #pointless text post#fencing
nonsense
lubetzky Folgen Well...Yesterday was a good day, full of plans with potential
that I hope will be in place in February or thereabouts and has the potential
for some more school. All good things, a good chat, a good lunch.Woke up this
morning to news of Alan Rickman. It’s hitting me pretty hard and I’m not sure
why. I’m also coming down with a really conveniently timed cold. Three day
tournament tomorrow to run, one which I had a bad cold/fever throughout. HURRAH.
How they always seem like good ideas when you’re done and getting your check and
going “Okay, we can run this again.” I am resisting the siren’s call of my
office couch. Lunch and then working on more documentation and then a late
meeting and then home to pack and maybe a bath and then on to the tournament.
Monday and my day off can’t come soon enough.#pointless text post#anxiety brainz
lubetzky hat gerebloggt lubetzky Folgen Yesterday - kickass productive and on
track and even went for a run and cooked a real meal and hurrah.Today - dragging
since the alarm went off, cramping, can’t focus, already starting to freak out
about upcoming tournament.Really, self? What happened in 24 hours? Get through
this meeting and then you have the ref desk at the end of the day and you can go
home and nap.lubetzky Called the therapist I had emailed via a site and never
heard from and it sounds like I maybe woke her up, but whatever it’s done even
though I have to wait until February to see her. I just want a brainz that
works. That feels like not so much to ask and everything at the same time.
lubetzky Folgen Yesterday - kickass productive and on track and even went for a
run and cooked a real meal and hurrah.Today - dragging since the alarm went off,
cramping, can’t focus, already starting to freak out about upcoming
tournament.Really, self? What happened in 24 hours? Get through this meeting and
then you have the ref desk at the end of the day and you can go home and
nap.#anxiety brainz
lubetzky Folgen BrainzSo after clearing out my closet this weekend and bookcases
the weekend before, I realized I had a ton of stuff to go to Goodwill piling up.
The Huzband had left me the good car and I could just pop on over there and
BOOM, accomplishpants. But I hesitated for quite some time because I find the
idea of driving, especially driving by myself somewhere for the first time, to
be still terrifying. I have a license and a car, but nope. And this didn’t
involve highways or anything - just a 20 min. drive to another part of the city.
But it still felt like a risk.I know anxietyBrainz means that I’m going to see
risk in nearly anything. Sending an email to someone? RISK! Trying to get an
idea down for a project? RISK! Doing my normal job? STILL KINDA RISKY THERE.
Plan on working out at the gym after work? ARE YOU SURE BECAUSE WHEN ARE THE
BUSES RUNNING AND PARKING IS EXPENSIVE! Risk means I hesitate or don’t do
anything (because paralyzed by indecision) and then nothing gets done and time
sensitive things get worse and I feel worst and BLAH. So there are two things to
do here. The first is to try to get more reasonable with Risk Assessment. This
might be a self-talk thing. Research needed. And maybe I should just straight up
call that therapist who never got back to me via that email form. The second is
to just Do The Things. Every drive to a new place makes the next trip easier.
Every email that I just hit send on makes the next one go out a little faster.
This is, in theory, the easiest one to execute. And I’m doing it. I try to be a
bit braver each day, to do a little more. Come on, self. Keep going.#pointless
text post#anxiety brainz
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lubetzky hat snarkyblue gerebloggt alxbngala Folgen Money Cats masterpost, to
have your LIFE!! filled with money.stripperina and catsQuelle: alxbngala
lubetzky hat gerebloggt eddievedders Folgen You were joking. People joke about
the horrible things that they don’t do. They don’t do them. It’s absurd!
requested by willagivens.drst Folgen “All hitmen know that movie. It’s our
Casablanca.”jacquez45 I haven’t watched this movie in too long.snarkyblue Folgen
“A thousand innocent people get killed every day! But a millionaire’s pet gets
detonated, and you’re marked for life.”
lubetzky hat gerebloggt centuriespast Folgen UNKNOWN MASTER, English Portrait of
Anna Boleyn 1530-36 Oil on wood, 54,3 x 41,6 cm National Portrait Gallery,
London

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