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THE CHIPTUNE STORY

This page was written in response to the reddit comment here asking for more
information about why I would dislike Celeste and Steven Universe.

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Yeah so video game music is a small community. I'll explain this on the
assumption that you're sincere about needing context, so you'll believe me with
a longer explanation. If you actually meant to say that you don't believe me and
you don't need context, please don't respond asking for evidence.

I was repeatedly outed by two british chiptune transphobe people named Blitz
Lunar and Keffie (aka kfaraday and several other names). They were friends,
mostly with surrashu I guess, for something like 15 years. I had also known
lunar for a long time, but that doesn't mean much when you're trans. I should
have predicted this because the first thing he said when I came out privately
was something along the lines of "who cares, just be gay."

I had a related server for videogame music, as there's pretty significant
overlap with chiptune, and Lunar and Keffie were in both communities. The whole
indie vgm/chiptune community was pretty insular and if you were in it long
enough, you eventually met a ton of people who ended up in the industry. Toby
Fox would probably be the most famous of those but he was long gone by the time
this happened (good for him too).

Lunar had made some early famitracker work that was widely respected and
actually quite good, so he was a staple all over the place. After a dispute
where I banned one of his friends for, again, telling his girlfriend I was
trans, Lunar and Keffie responded with a lengthy smear campaign, which I
documented pretty well at the time but I have been homeless since then.

(Full disclosure, I had also accused Keffie/Kfaraday of pedophilia, which
evidently turned out to be correct. He was banned from everywhere a few months
later, and none of his friends would give me a reason why. He'd posted apologia
though and I was nearly certain he had groomed one of his community members
before she was 18. Lunar, Aivi, and surrasshu knew about this part but I don't
know if Lena did.)

I was repeatedly brigaded by their server at like 3 in the morning. One of the
first times involved him saying that everyone knew I was catfishing. Mostly
there was a lot of effort to link my previous identity (where I publicly used my
deadname) with my current one (where I wasn't out yet and wouldn't want my
deadname shared if I were). There were also some of the usual comics with people
hanging themselves and so on.

The problem was, I didn't **want** to be repeatedly outed and I also didn't want
to out myself. So the result was a lot of prominent people getting banned for
"doxxing a trans person" and I refused to provide screenshots because they would
have exposed my identity. This led to no public condemnation while I desperately
tried to contact other people in the community to contain the situation.

I have no idea what went on behind the scenes, but they all sided with the more
famous musicians who ran larger servers. One of the first people I went to was a
wanna-be communist under the name Cass Cuttlefish. She turned out to be good
friends with Aivi and Keffie and shared my conversations with them. Oddly enough
she hated the girl who I think keffie groomed.

I had avoided Aivisura because as long-time friends of Lunar, I knew that I had
no chance of convincing them. Surasshu had already blocked me, as had most of
their other admins prior to my DMing them. I was also banned from around 6 or 7
sites/servers, including ones I wasn't active in, because again, these people
had wide reach.

When I dmed Aivi it was pretty much a hail mary, hoping that their (Aivi was
newly out as nb when this happened) association with Steven Universe would mean
that they might understand things, or at the very least they might fear the bad
optics.

Nope. I'd later come to find out that SU doesn't really have any trans women on
staff or on the show, and it's (to my knowledge) AFAB-only for nonbinary people,
which probably shows some disgusting beliefs about gender from Rebecca Sugar.
Naturally I did not, will not, and cannot watch that show.

The response I got from Aivi was a set of orders telling me not to talk about
this or that. Its writing style looked like a lawyer was consulted before it was
sent to me. Then they blocked me.

Several years later, I still hear the catfishing accusations. Even other
transfemmes in the community, for example Telebasher, think that I am not
legitimately trans. I was homeless for a couple years starting a few months
after this incident and I've never had any genuine friends since then. Being
outed before I was ready damaged an already failing relationship with my
immediate family and I do not speak to any of them either.

So yeah, the reason I don't watch Steven Universe is because its music team were
admins in a community that kept outing me, and they did absolutely nothing to
stop it.

As for Celeste, I'm pretty sure Lena and Aivi's friendship is documented if you
google it enough (Lena has definitely said something about Aivi inspiring her to
be more visible in chiptune), but if not, believe me when I say they were
friends and Lena was in there, even though she wasn't an admin like the rest.
She never responded any of the times I talked to her about it, which I take as
tacit approval of Lunar/Keffie/Aivi's actions. It would have cost her nothing to
say "I don't agree with that" or "I don't know what you are talking about."

A few people admitted to me, typically way later, that what happened was wrong
and they disagreed with it, but oddly enough they all seem to remember
supporting me at the time, which didn't happen. One other person stood up to the
pedophile but no one sided with me publicly when I was outed. I got the
impression that they were afraid mostly of Keffie and Lunar. But a terf being a
terf is expected. It doesn't boil my blood like a trans person being a
transphobe does.

Unlike three years ago, I am completely willing at this point to discuss
everything out in the open with Aivi and kuraine -- their long-term friendship
with TERF island, their willingness to sweep pedophilia under the rug if it
comes from a prolific member of their community, their marginalization of trans
women based on passability... all of it.

Their community was called Maj7 but to my understanding it has turned into
Infloresce now. Dunno why I am giving free advertising to them, since if
previous experience is any indicaiton, some of you'll be elated that they did
this to me.

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This would be far from the last time that I would have to ask people to judge
based on what happened, and not based on the identity of the accused